the love of [God]

One who is loved by a beautiful other may look at the other person and feel unworthy of their love, insecure and unsettled within by knowing who they truly are and seeing themself with eyes that compare with others and expose every flaw, no matter how small. This person may think, "How could someone so high above me love something like me? They surely are only pretending to love me for a time, soon enough they will grow tired of me, realize that I can never be worthy of them and pass over me for a creature of beauty far beyond my compare."

this is humanity

So we are with God. We see His infinite beauty and are rightly humbled in ourselves. We know who we truly are and can see it with an eye that critiques and searches to the recesses of ourselves. We gauge our wickedness and unworthiness rightly, [but God] who has seen us far before we were a thought, or our parents existed, or the worlds were formed, although He sees us with an eye far more astute than ours, knowing all our sins, and He knew we were ugly and fallen and broken and dead, but because of His son, our perfect great lamb, we are to Him,

   Righteous. Clean. Lovely. 

   Sinless. Whole. Restored.

       and Beautiful.

      [He sees Christ]

And that is all the fitness He requires.

Just to see our need of Him.

And we are loved with

everlasting 

love unchanging,

never ending, never failing.

Who we are in Christ

is all we really ARE

 

lyrics ins arial

Picture from Flickr, Lyrics by Owl City, Made by me. :)

living

where was i when
you took my soul
and ripped the shreds
to make a whole?

the skin is cracking
dragon scales
the old is gone
the new has come.

going

i feel like
like we spend so much time just
getting ready for
ready for living and life
but is all that living simply
simply existing?

if every moment
of every day
is not lived with the thought
that we are only alive
because of His love
and we only are here
to further the kingdom
and push on to glory
the cause of the master
the love of the king

we aren't dead yet
so we must live
the life that's left
with full abandon
toward The Love.

:(

my life is full of disappointments.
peter pan never showed up at my window,
i still haven't gotten my hogwarts acceptance letter,
and no matter how many houses i live in,
none of the cupboards lead to narnia.

stain.

The lady in the
picture frame
the face forgotten
shadow glass
torn again in
line and song
the caffeine addict's
dream
find me softly
hear her scream
and soft we lay
her down to sleep
beneath the
graphite's stain.

content

Sometimes i just get to wanting adventure and to get out and
see all those great and amazing things that I've read of.
It makes it worse when i read phrases like the "the moon over the badlands."
That just conjures up in my mind this huge
vision of laying on my back on a huge prairie with nothing but me,
God, and the stars above me. There would be miraculous
quiet there and the whisper of the wind would carry rest and
adventure all in one breath. The aching of a heart that loves to wander
is definitely mine.

I want to feel the cool breeze that wafted about in Eilat as i
walked along the boardwalk and lay in the sand listening to the
strains of music from a nearby bar and the voices of my friends
discussing everything from relationships to music to various
types of dancing
as my heart was content as we also talked about the Lord.
Then there was the cool water that i stuck my toes in
and the next day snorkeled in.
There is little like a memory where everything from the smells
to the sounds to the very feeling of the wind against your skin
comes back. And the lights on the water
glimmered like nothing I'd ever seen before.

Then there are those days of hiking through the
woods around Baniass and the river Dan where the
foliage was lush and heavy with the rain that
just kept falling. It fell on my face and i loved it,
walking where jesus walked, as the rain He sent me fell.
And the roaring of the river as
it rushed on toward the waterfall was powerful
and i knew that He had made it all. There were so many
shades of green that if it were a less peaceful
color it would have been almost too much for sight.
But as it was there was rest and it was beautiful.

Caedmon's Call has a line "Lord, all the places you have placed us."
Sometimes it's hard to be where you're placed,
but it's the best for sure. God will get His glory whether or not
we are "happy" with where He puts us,
It would be utterly stupid to think that somehow
something we do could mess up His plans.
How humbling that we are in His plan at all, that He lets people
who are lower than low, that care not for Him
and His glory, serve Him and even have the strength to
draw another breath. The discontent that I feel, does spring
from an adventurous heart that is a gift from my God,
but also from a heart that does not trust my God with where I'm at.
How foolish am I. The adventure is living
a life in His love and serving Him with all that we are.
Then He takes us all over the place to spread His glory.

It's the only life worthwhile. Like Rich Mullins says:

Save me from those things That might distract me Please take them away and purify my heart I don't want to lose the eternal for The things that are passing 'Cause what will I have when the world is gone If it isn't for the love that goes on and on with. My one thing, You're my one thing And the pure in heart shall see God.

God is greater than my heart.