Tuesday, September 22, 2009

stain.


The lady in the
picture frame
the face forgotten
shadow glass
torn again in
line and song
the caffeine addict's
dream
find me softly
hear her scream
and soft we lay
her down to sleep
beneath the
graphite's stain.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

content


Sometimes i just get to wanting adventure and to get out and
see all those great and amazing things that I've read of.
It makes it worse when i read phrases like the "the moon over the badlands."
That just conjures up in my mind this huge
vision of laying on my back on a huge prairie with nothing but me,
God, and the stars above me. There would be miraculous
quiet there and the whisper of the wind would carry rest and
adventure all in one breath. The aching of a heart that loves to wander
is definitely mine.

I want to feel the cool breeze that wafted about in Eilat as i
walked along the boardwalk and lay in the sand listening to the
strains of music from a nearby bar and the voices of my friends
discussing everything from relationships to music to various
types of dancing
as my heart was content as we also talked about the Lord.
Then there was the cool water that i stuck my toes in
and the next day snorkeled in.
There is little like a memory where everything from the smells
to the sounds to the very feeling of the wind against your skin
comes back. And the lights on the water
glimmered like nothing I'd ever seen before.

Then there are those days of hiking through the
woods around Baniass and the river Dan where the
foliage was lush and heavy with the rain that
just kept falling. It fell on my face and i loved it,
walking where jesus walked, as the rain He sent me fell.
And the roaring of the river as
it rushed on toward the waterfall was powerful
and i knew that He had made it all. There were so many
shades of green that if it were a less peaceful
color it would have been almost too much for sight.
But as it was there was rest and it was beautiful.

Caedmon's Call has a line "Lord, all the places you have placed us."
Sometimes it's hard to be where you're placed,
but it's the best for sure. God will get His glory whether or not
we are "happy" with where He puts us,
It would be utterly stupid to think that somehow
something we do could mess up His plans.
How humbling that we are in His plan at all, that He lets people
who are lower than low, that care not for Him
and His glory, serve Him and even have the strength to
draw another breath. The discontent that I feel, does spring
from an adventurous heart that is a gift from my God,
but also from a heart that does not trust my God with where I'm at.
How foolish am I. The adventure is living
a life in His love and serving Him with all that we are.
Then He takes us all over the place to spread His glory.

It's the only life worthwhile. Like Rich Mullins says:

Save me from those things That might distract me Please take them away and purify my heart I don't want to lose the eternal for The things that are passing 'Cause what will I have when the world is gone If it isn't for the love that goes on and on with. My one thing, You're my one thing And the pure in heart shall see God.

God is greater than my heart.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

make it last


life goes by like a hurricane
and vapor in the wind
it's a brand new day
with a brand new dawn
and these are exciting times

adventure's in the wind.
make it what will last.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

all your own



in the world
still i am
and hard the road
and dark the view
but then i look
I look to you
and see you there
in gardens pleading
loving me

For all the father
gave to you
and glory indescribable
you put aside oh so freely
to come to earth and
love the ones
who turned and hated
you and fought your love
with every fiber of our own

the bleeding dying all alone
and weight of sin was all my own
i wallowed wormlike in the murk
loving all the dead i was
but YOU, you took the pain and
bore the hurt and took the shame
the curse of God on broken Me
YOU
Died
for
me.

"nothing in my hand I bring
simply to thy cross I cling."

"you know the depths of my heart
and you love me the same"

these are true
your love is true
the glory all belongs to you
your beauty shines from bloodstained face
as peircing spear
would rend your side
and God forsook You as you died
but still you fought and drank that cup
for what was mine you died alone
and now my heart is all your own

Thursday, August 13, 2009

plea


take my focus off of me
and fix me to your
Love

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

given up, willingly



days go by
and hours fly
and i look to you
for purity of heart and mind
and things that I should do

just to have your will
i give up my life
to know your fullness now
i long to sacrifice

no sacrifice i know
compared to what you've done
in giving up your throne
to die and rise again.

i'll follow where you lead
and run to you again
whenever i lose sight
or fall from where I've been

I know you'll never leave me
you called me ere I knew
your love is steadfast always
and your promises are true.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

the struggle


a thousand times we've come again
to a place where we're alone
we fight our daily battle here
and breathless leave again

my mystery of pain and joy
the fighters both are me
the one who does the sin i please
the one who loves the king

today we meet to kill again
the king's one cries for pain
today's the day and now we come
to fight and finish me.