s-thinking

silence eats the
words i try to make come
while i wait and wrestle
with the thoughts about
to short my brain waves out

waiting in a happy hell
so tired of doing good things
dreaming about great things i think
should be coming from these
thoughts i must supress

i need strength to make
it through these days in
mediocre intellectual cut time
missing people who don't care
but thankful there are some who do

find an outlet in the
struggle for a better waste of time
brutal truth-ing in my heart is
all that keeps the beating
there for future hope