Friday, August 26, 2011

Something I'm working on...


Once there lived a little boy
His name was Peter Andy
He often stopped to watch the planes
as they loaded and fled from the ground

Peter was happy just watching them fly
But one day he started to think
“where do they come from and where do they go?”
Every craft would return on its own

He crept up much closer to where the planes lived
And to Peter’s surprise all the people were gone
All he could smell was the burn of his town
The smell of his clothes that were really just trash

The planes were so shiny, so clean and brand new
He wondered, “Could he be as new as them too?”
He wandered much closer and saw in the panels
The reflection of him and how dirty he was.
He sat on the pavement, his heart growing sad
There was hope that had drawn him
But hope of a life far away in the sky, he thought
Surely impossible for one filthy as I

Of a sudden a man came walking to Peter
He said “Have you come for the ride?
It’s a long and dark journey, but the end is all joy
Now is the time to board today
Come along or forever stay.”

Peter looked up at the man, surely crazy.
“Did you  see what I look like, how filthy, unclean?
I’d soil the seats, I’d ruin the plane,
I don’t belong there, I never could come.

The man just took one big step closer
And took young Peter by the hand
“No one who comes is clean for the plane
We do that for you, it’s part of the plan.”

Peter just stared, t’was a lot to take in
The man wanted Peter and could make him all clean
Peter looked over his shoulder to home
And suddenly knew what a place that it was

Home was burning and burning
His home was a trash heap
Everyone there was as filthy as he
The poison they breathed was the air of destruction
Their whole life was dying
He saw that all now.

“Today is the day where you have to decide”
The man stretched out his hand and took Peter’s inside
“It’s forever or nothing and now you must choose,
Will you travel away into the sky?
Or stay here forever and surely here die?”

Peter felt that his heart was divided within
He knew the filth from which he had come
But the filth was the comfort he’s always known
To be clean would be strange and just so far away

But he knew at the heart of the depth of his heart
There was no going back, He had to take part.
He stepped toward the man and said
“This takes my life, we’d better go
Soon before the light is all gone.”

They ran to the plane and climbed quickly in.
The man hugged Peter and said
I’ll be up front, flying this thing
You won’t always see me, but I won’t let us down.

Out stepped a girl, her clothes somewhat clean
Cleaner than Peter but not as clean as the man.
She said “Come on, Peter! Glad you’re aboard!
I’ll show you how we live.

“The journey’s long,” the girl began
“But trust the pilot, the man that you met
There will be storms and turbulent times
But that’s where our seatbelts come in.

The plane may shake and bounce all around
Sometimes there’s lightning and sometimes it’s loud.
But even if we are out of control
The Pilot’s ships always arrive safe at the last.”

Peter sat and he buckled on in
He realized his clothes were less dirty already.
Nothing He’d done, but in places where the pilot had lifted him up
The stains were much lighter the stench was much weaker.

His heart swelled with joy as the liftoff ensued
And the view as the plane touched the edge of the sky
And the pilot exclaimed
“It’s beautiful now, wait till I come again.”

Peter could rest now like never before
The food that the pilot made was unlike any he’d known
And the time that he spent with the pilot was full
Of laughter and joy, and cleansing some more.

The girl came around every now and again
But when he focused on the pilot
He barely could see anything more
 Than the smile on his face and the touch of his hand
Filled with love, filled with life, and full of his grace.

After some time the pilot didn’t come near as much
And Peter grew restless and wandered around
One day near the kitchen that was stocked with good food,
He smelled something earthy and not all that good.

A smell he remembered that made his head light with feeling
And when he saw what it was all his senses went reeling
A stash of the garbage that rotted behind
The kitchen in a pail that had yet to be dumped.

The boy could remember the taste of this slop
He remembered at first with an uneasy feeling
Then he remembered his favorite rotten delights
The smell overwhelmed his mind and his thoughts

His memories kept growing stronger and stronger.
He walked out the door but his mind stayed within
Thinking of garbage and how much he’d found
And of how much it filled him when he’d been at home

They were blessings turned sour, not at their right time
He knew his food was better, but couldn’t resist
The temptation to taste of the garbage again.
He started to sneak little handfuls away.

He lost his taste for the Pilot’s food
His days spent instead consuming nasty old fish heads
The pilot was gone far longer than usual
And the habit grew larger and larger and larger.

The pains in his stomach grew worse as the days passed
And It came to a point where he couldn’t get up
The trash became trash again in a different pail
And his nausea consumed him but mixed with desire.

‘I feel I will die” screamed Peter that day
“How could the pilot leave me this way?
Why would he leave pails of stuff lying around that could make me this sick,
That could bring me to death?

When Peter was worse than he ever had been
The pilot came down from the cockpit and said
“My peter, why would you go back to that trash
When my cooking for you is the best of the best?”

Peter just groaned and he whined in his shame
“I don’t know what I was thinking
It’s made me so sick
I know your ways are the best and your place is my rest.”

The Pilot nursed Peter back to health
And gave him a diet of what would be best
Peter recovered and the pilot said then
“I’m going up front and don’t know when I’m coming
Back, but watch for me patiently, eating my food for my best is your best.”

(to be continued/improved upon)

Monday, August 15, 2011

thoughts from tonight

God has perfect designs and times for the gifts He gives, and trying to use these gifts in any way or at any time other than He has designed is like having a tree that produces beautiful fruit but eating the fruit when it is not ripe, or when it has rotted, or eating just the seed and the stem. Your stomach may be filled but you will probably get sick, and no matter the immediate consequences, you will have missed out on the best possible thing, the perfectly matured fruit at the perfect time.

God's plan here is not a plan for human satisfaction, but a plan to display how great his love and mercy are, and somehow when we partake of that, living in the way He designs, then we will find satisfaction from His glory, from living out His designs. His ways so far transcend us, that this is the ultimate best; to find the greatest joy and satisfaction from forsaking our own desires and plans and living for the glory of another.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

The Invitation

I'm so full of sin
But you're so full of grace
and you're reaching to me
and your promises all say

Come as you are
Come meet with me
I am the Truth
and the truth makes you free
leave all your sins
I have grace to forgive you
child of mine
it's for you I have died

I can hardly believe
there could be mercy so free
But when I fall and you catch me
I keep hearing you singing

Come as you are
come meet with me
I am the truth
and the truth makes you free
leave all your sins
I have grace to forgive you
child of mine
it's for you I have died

Come weary sinner, poor and unworthy
darkness to light, look, the glory is shining
Come weary sinner, I am your father
I am your portion, I love you for always

Friday, July 8, 2011

flying

leaving the ground the sunset lines
the glow that's running through the skies
Your love is a mystery of destiny and why
like how they persuade these giant airplanes to fly
and the way it feels when my feet leave the ground
when the gravity pins me straight to my seat
it's a rush it's a change but the joy is the same
when i read of your love or i see hearts transformed 
or i learn of your grace and your mercy so strong
all the ways that you take me to circling round
from the things that I love to the ways of your son
remind me of airplanes and days full of joy
soaring up miles high thinking of you
and my heart is content with your love

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Love thoughts?

Love paints a picture of Jesus' face
Our actions a shadow, a touch of His grace
Loving, our method, our course and our guide
Showing a glimpe of all that sin hides

Let me lead you to this other worlds
Full of the peace and the light we can't see
Made from the glory our minds cannot reach
Reaching out to touch little parts of these lives

Finding a way to support to survive
Pointing the way through current tribulations
Leading the way to my Lord's perfect station

Only in Jesus can any find rest
Only with him will the demons meet death
Help me to show just a glimpse of his face
And my life will surely be running the race

Thought: Learning to love is more important than learning about ghosts. 

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

A song born out of struggle

a while ago i doubted strong
and feared if i believed in God
i knew somehow i had to find 
a way to see if i believed
in all these things so hard
like hell bound people in a 
theater of God's design and if that's right
i know the answer how it's all of Him
that he can do whatever just so
he will have the final say
bringing glory to himself is
all the highest good there is
and this i know, that this is true
that He is bigger and more worthy
but the worst thing was that
i can look inside my heart and see that
i do not belong within his courts
my heart is far rebellious still
and many days i just don't love him yet
but for some reason i can not escape him
there is just a hold too tight 
he grasped my heart and wants it still
i don't believe it sometimes but his
love is stronger than my doubts and worries
that his plan may be the less than best
and if he's even real at all
i tested if my heart believed and all that i could 
reconcile was God is bigger than my heart
and whether i can understand it
he is best and all deserving all the highest accolades i
ever bring to anything. 

my god is so big, so strong and so mighty,
there's nothing my god can not do
and he holds to my heart though at times i don't want him
and though i'd like to doubt him he'll always be stronger
and picking me up when i fall down for years
into beautiful agony, doubt riddled fears
but someday i'm free from this body of sin and that death is the door out of
death into life.
i can't run from him and somehow it brings me to loving him more.

oh god i can't run and there's no where to hide
my dark little space is laid bare by your light
and you are the only one that i need.

David wrote psalms despairing at first
he ached and he groaned with the rest of creation
wondering why we can not win
i'd like to think he ached for years and even when he
triumphed with you he was still right in the thick of it
but at the end of all despair he saw your light and you were there
the point of all his suffering, he needed you, you are the king.
  
even though i'm still a struggler
lonely, vile, can't reconcile
i know you're with me, though 
i think that you should leave me
just to rot like i deserve
and i can't fathom why you'd pick me 
and my life just feels so hard
the pressure crashes
and i feel like i just fall back deeper 
in the hole i'm digging
trying to get out but only 
getting further in 
but there's this good work you have started 
and you keep me to the end so
i won't forget your holy power 
and that darkness shows there's light
and in the midst of all my trouble 
i will look to you and fight
to race to joy that you have offered
solely in your self.

God my love is you.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

english thoughts

true love leads to
sight transcending
prior states of heart